Baby Steps

I am sick of sitting still.  I am sick of feeling like I have no control over my life.   I HAVE THE POWER.  From now on, I am going to take little baby steps to change completely.

Too many big steps lead me to frustration or panic.  If I try to change too many habits at one time, I get overwhelmed and end up eating tubs of ice cream and cans of pringles for dinner.  Because big changes are scary for me, I have decided to break my goals down into smaller, manageable baby steps.  I don't have to wake up and be perfect tomorrow, just as long as I'm better than I am today.  For the month of April, that means writing every day.

I am committing myself to do Camp NaNoWriMo.  For those of you who don't know, NaNoWriMo is short for "National Novel Writing Month" in which aspiring writers write 50,000 words (or more!) in 30 days.  Camp NaNo is a smaller version, where you set your own goals and work toward them.  Mine is to write 30,000 more words in my zombie story (I have about 24,000).  I am so excited to write every day.  I don't even care if it's good writing, I just want to get the story over and done with.  Honestly, as long as the finished product is about 35,000 words, I will be happy.

Now.  How am I planning on doing this?  Well, first of all, I am breaking my shackles to the twin-tailed mermaid.  This is bittersweet for me because in the two and a half years that I worked there, I met some of the most incredible people that I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.  They're really the reason that I stuck around so long.  But I am trying to do what is right for me, and so my last day is tomorrow.

I am planning to have a lot more free time.  No more 4:30am wake up calls means that I can stay up a bit later, I don't have to go straight from the coffee sea to my other job and work a total of 12 hours, so I'll be less likely to stress/binge play the Sims 3.  Which means more time for writing!

Baby steps.  I am in control of my life.  I am going to do the things that I want to do, I am going to be true to myself because only I have the power to change my life through the choices that I make.  I am so excited.  This journey is going to be amazing.